Cynics create Believers

Today, as I’m sure everyone is aware, is December 31, 2006. It’s the last day of 2006. This fact makes me a little sad, for some reason, I’m not quite sure why. This year was definitely a full year. I started off the semester making a big mistake that though I no longer regret it, look back and wonder why I was so stupid. Ugh… but I learned a lot. In reality I didn’t really make any New Year’s resolutions out loud, but I did have a few that were internal. I broke them all with in the first couple of days. I also started out the New Year by going to Disneyland for the first time… ever. lol… who would have guessed, I, who lived in California for a while, had never been to Disneyland. That was fun. This year was full of mistakes, and lots of experiences. In February I went back to California for a work thing, and I said goodbye to my house forever. My parents had decided yet again, to move. Joy, we were going to Savannah, GA. Wow… how cool yet sad could you get. I finished up school, and moved out east. The summer was fun filled and wow, I learned a lot. I met so many people who taught me so many things. Oh, and I picked up a little southern accent. I learned to love the place that I thought I would hate. The summer closed yet again and I went back out to school. Always a joy, the semester started off so well, and I got a new good group of friends. Once again as the semester started to come to an end I felt like I was losing control, everything was spinning away. I didn’t quite no how to deal. I got super stressed, forgot to eat at times, lost some weight, and a bunch of other things. Oh and I met a boy. Haha, see Pumpkin Flavored Rice Pudding for that story. Now the semester is over and I am once again home contemplating the past year.

As I look back, the one thing I notice as a trend in my past year, was I learned a lot. I’m not kidding. I made so many mistakes and I had to experience so much that I feel like I am a lot older than last year. Which is funny, I never really feel older, that isn’t something that I usually feel, I mean I can look back and see how I’ve progressed, but I’ve never actually felt physically older. I do now, when I look back to this time last year, not much has changed. Actually take that back. I’m still making the same stupid mistakes, but not exactly. I fell like I am, but the way people are reacting around me shows that it is different. I don’t know if that makes sense. My mom and I have a much better relationship than before. I still don’t feel as if I can tell her everything, but I open up about a lot more and we seem to get along better. People respond to me differently and seem to feel as if they can approach me now. It’s all so different. Some of the same people are in my life, but many have changed. As I look back, everything has changed, but it’s the things I learned, the memories that will stay with me. Maybe I’m hard headed and it takes me a while to learn, but still I learned, and that is one lesson closer to learning it well. It was funny, as I was sitting with my family and friends tonight listening to the youth fireside from Salt Lake, I heard a lot that I needed too, but the one thing that really stuck out to me was a quote by President Hinckley. “You can be wise and happy, or you can be stupid and miserable.” I don’t even remember why he said this. But it does apply. Everything that I have learned over the past year, I can be wise and remember the things that I was taught, or I can be stupid and do them again. Either way produces a result, I just have to choose which result I want.

I want to be happy. So instead this year, I have chose to make resolutions, but not just resolutions, I have chose to make goals. These goals are achievable and will help me to be wise. I have made 7 resolutions and I am going to stick to them to the best of my ability. This should be interesting, but I’m going to post them in one or more very visible places so that I remember them. This year, I’m am going to use this method to help me to become happy. I wish everyone a Happy New Year, and good luck with those resolutions. I love ya’ll!